Pieces From the Past

Have you ever been away from home for a pretty long time and then came back and felt completely strange? Well, let me tell you how's it feel. Going back home after let's say one year away always feel strange. There's two way how you might describe it. Some part of yourself would think you became unfamiliar with the place and there's something missing from your memory. And then the other part of yourself, might be the one that unconsciously had been missing being home more than you can imagine, feel so good to be home that you'd think you had never really left home.

For me, going back home is like having amnesia. For one year or whatever years you been away, is the missing memories that you would never remember because you weren't around. Then, somehow things are not exactly the same like you remember before you left. You wouldn't recognize the street that you always passed by for years because they made new street nearby. Or you find yourself get lost at your favorite bookstore that you'd known for ages just because the new manager changed all the positions. Yes, when you got home, pretty sure everything will change and things are unrecognizable. Not cool, yeah I know. The place that you thought you'd known the best, turned out you don't know a thing. Just like missing a party that everyone's invited.

You might doing something completely different when you're away; having different lifestyle, doing different work, being with different people. Then, you are expected by yourself to re-adapt with your previous life and it's feel kind of unfamiliar at the first place. You might always sleep at 4 in the morning due your work and then all of sudden you have to sleep before 10 pm because nobody still awake after that time. Or you always find yourself easy to get anywhere you want without asking anybody's permission but suddenly you have to give something like hourly 'report' to your overprotective Mom. But the end of the day, you have to adjust to that kind of lifestyle and it feels like something new because you are not used to it for a very long time.

As the time goes by, the amnesia you're having will recover one by one. You'd see from the window of your car places that you used to go a lot. And the memories would follow by. You will start thinking how much you loved drinking bubble gum drink or watching the latest movie at the mall with your friends, or how often you went to a supermarket with your parents, or how often you went to hair salon to get your hair done. Suddenly you remember every details of that and you couldn't stop yourself but missing those time. And without you realize, a smile will formed at the corner of your mouth.

And the best of all, when you fully recover from your amnesia; get used to your previous lifestyle and remember all the places you loved to go and start going there again because you just love going there; suddenly you had to leave... again.